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[21 Aug 2006|02:25pm]
sometimes, i look at the live videos and think... what am I doing in Japan? I can't even talk.

I get discouraged so easily...
. . . right, sir? || * * * ||

[13 Jun 2005|07:39am]
The sky is a pretty shade of grey, today. A pretty pretty overcast cloud game. It curls over the ocean like a sleep deprived kitten, crumpling after three laps at a bowl of over-chilled milk-creme mixture.

My hands have a pretty palsy, today. Shaky with the movements of the air currents between my fingers. They shake and they quake and they rake, today, across skin plains and open pore wells.

My eyes have blinked five times in the past thirty seconds. It's natural, I think, but it's a little too much, today.

My lashes are brushing my cheeks, today, and they can't even begin to pry themselves apart.

O

. . . right, sir? || * * * || 1 in me . . .

[18 May 2005|08:48pm]
... my heart.

... my brain.

... i think i'm dehydrating.


does anyone, anywhere, know what to do?


O
. . . right, sir? || * * * || 5 in me . . .

[27 Apr 2005|12:01am]
[ private ]

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but that's really a well kept secret, isn't it.

[ /private ]

O
. . . right, sir? || * * * ||

* -snip- * [26 Apr 2005|08:24am]
I'm cutting my strings, sirs.

I'm cutting my ties, madames.

It's dangerous in these parts, don't you know?

Why oh why oh why don't you give a damn?



O
. . . right, sir? || * * * || 24 in me . . .

. . . [31 Jan 2005|09:54am]
[[private save the eyes of Ken, Kim, and Yuu]]


You are--

--an abomination--
...animosity personified...
--cRuel
B A D . B L O O D
hostility's bedmate--
C . O . N . T . A . M . I . N . A . T . E . D
...
condemned...
[[ready to fall]]
abhored, spurned, reviled
the main A N T A G O N I S T
the itch, the allergy, and the disease
an i n c u r a b l e . b a n e
[[i'll call you Pariah]]
Revolting, Repulsive, Regrettable
SHAME S H A M E SHAME
...wicked...
H . A . T . E
in liquid form.

And I LOATHE you with all the anathema my heart is capable of.



[[Private]]

...I hope you have a nice day.





O
. . . right, sir? || * * * ||

... heart. [21 Jan 2005|11:25pm]
Just one person in a million waiting for that day
To start and end the line
To pay it all on time

The Sacrifice
Michael Nyman | Please Save as


My fingers are numb.

My eardrums are cracked.

My vision is blurry.

And I'm still coughing up water.

...



Thank you, Ken, for dragging me out.

Speaking Terms.Collapse )

I'm sorry your suit got all wet. And if you are ill, I'm sorry for that too.

Reasoning.Collapse )



Salt water.Collapse )



Voicemail for YuuCollapse )



O
. . . right, sir? || * * * ||

Regrets [19 Jan 2005|06:02am]
Ken left me a voicemail today. He has a very strong, distinctive voice, reminiscent of the deep rumblings of a waterfall when you're in a cave under the breadth of its pouring. His accent is cute.

He invited me to a benefit that I know nothing about. I hope no one will be upset with my decision to humour his request.

[[~* p r i v a t e *~]]

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changing with the skyCollapse )
sakura shyCollapse )
december clouds cryCollapse )

illuminant lightCollapse )
illuminate meCollapse )
illuminant lightCollapse )
illuminate meCollapse )

play me a symphonyCollapse )
dance with meCollapse )

child of the moonCollapse )
changing with the tideCollapse )
up and downCollapse )
the seashore sideCollapse )

illuminant lightCollapse )
illuminate meCollapse )
illuminant lightCollapse )
illuminate meCollapse )

with you i findCollapse )
what is meCollapse )

[~* / p r i v a t e *~]

I reflect on my past and I don't blink an eye.

Is that odd?

No tears. No regret.

... just... thought.



O
. . . right, sir? || * * * ||

。。。できない。。。 [10 Jan 2005|09:15am]

できないきれいじゃないけどできない太っているから
I can't because I'm not beautiful. I can't because I'm fat.
できない頭痛いからできない誰も要らないから
I can't because I have a headache. I can't because I don't want anyone.
できない時間がないけどできないうまくないけど
I can't because I have no time... but I can't because I'm not good at it... but...
できない自信がないけどできない一人じゃないから
I can't because I'm not confident in myself. I can't because I'm not alone.

このままじゃ満足できないこのままずっとこのまま

I can't ever be satisfied if this is the way it is,
I'll be the same if this is the way it is.



Private note to self...Collapse )

Ken IMed me today. We exchanged text messages. He's so forgetful. It's very cute. I hope that he had a good christmas. I would hate to think that he would be at a bar drinking by himself on such a wonderful lover's holiday! And I hope that he was with the one he wished to spend the whole year with on the turning of the new year! I can only wish him the best after our time together! I hope he is happy! <3

Give me a call, Kenken. Maybe we can hang out and I can give you this Coheed and Cambria CD I found! It reminds me of you and your personality very, very much! xoxoxoxo!!

Private commentaryCollapse )

On another note, I sent Yuu a gift and Kim came to talk to me again. I'm sorry that he is hurting. I'm hoping that maybe, if I can make him smile, it will help... if only just a little.


O
. . . right, sir? || * * * || 2 in me . . .

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